Getting my life back together...

Hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Years! Welcome to 2016!

I'm pretty sure one of my last blog posts was something along the lines of 'I'm going to make more videos and blog posts' which hasn't actually happened. 

I don't know what happened to me last semester but it wasn't good. Towards the end I was just constantly in a bad mood, keeping away from everyone in my room and hardly getting out of bed. I had no motivation to do anything, including university work, usually just dragging myself out for a couple of hours a week. I don't know whether I was a bit fed up, or stressed or just hormonal but it didn't feel good at all. 

So this year I just want to make sure that I never feel like that again because it sucked. First things first I'm going to sort myself out before I think of anything else. I need to start looking after myself because that's why I felt so horrible last semester, I just felt ill all the time. Eating healthier and getting back to the gym will help with that. I need to go out and do stuff instead so sitting in and doing nothing because that makes me feel rubbish too.

Then I'm going to have to divide my time equally between my friends and family , my uni work and my personal time because last year I spent too much time on myself, doing nothing with it. I wasn't a great friend last year, mainly because I didn't want to see or speak to anyone, for no particular reason.  I think they felt me hiding away in my room all the time and I don't want them to think that they can't come and talk to me. But with that being said I'm 100% not getting involved in other people's problems this year, it was way too stressful last semester.

I need to concentrate on uni too, get the best grades and work experience that I can because that's what's going to count in the future. And then use my personal time to start doing the things that I enjoy again because that's what makes me happy.

This break over christmas has done me good and I can't wait to get stuck back in with uni again!

Stay Happy!

Sarah

Boohoo Wishlist #2

It's here again! 

The next series in my Boohoo Wishlist is Boohoo Boutique. This is the nice night time clothes or luxury items that everyone wants! So let's get into it!

(I apologise for the bad quality picture, I don't know how to get it better!)

So the first item is this pair of shorts. They are the Boutique Mya All Over Hand Beaded Shorts for £15 and I actually own these shorts! I thought I would add these because I absolutely love these shorts. I think they look so much more expensive than they actually are. The beading detail is so nice and even though I don't have the matching top it still works with loads of things. I usually wear them on a night out with a cropped top and heels because it looks so elegant. 

Next is the Boutique Pam Patterned Bodycon Dress and I absolutely love this dress. Although it might clash with my hair I love the patterns and especially on the hem of the dress. I like the conservative top part too, not showing off any chest because that's usually what I go for. I think this would look great at a christmas party of something like that and it's only £35.

The middle one is actually a coat and I do have one similar to this that I've started to wear constantly. This is the Boutique Orla Collarless Wool Coat for £40. These duster kind of coats are so unbelievably warm and on trend at the same time. They can look great with a pair of jeans and a scarf on a day out but also with a dress and heels on a night out. This coat is definitely one of my essentials.

Next is the Boutique Aura Mesh Grid Full Midi Skater Skirt for £20. I have one of this style of skirt already but I hardly wear it because it's not the kind of thing I'd wear on a night out clubbing. If I was going for a really nice meal or to a christmas party I would love to wear one of these skirts. I love the elegant look of them with heels and they really emphasise your waist which is always great. These are such a nice style of skirt to have in your wardrobe.

And lastly in another dress. It's the Ariel Boutique Lace Crochet Bodycon Dress for £30. I love the contrast between these two colours and how the lace pattern stands out against the dark background. The high neck is also suitable for me and the way the lace is around the waist makes the eyes drawn to their showing off your waist. This is also another dress that would be perfect for a christmas party!

Hope you liked my next wishlist, I have much more planned!

Stay Happy

Sarah

Christmas Presents and Winter Sales

So Christmas had been and gone so I thought I'd show you what I got for Christmas this year!

(This is in no shape or form me bragging about what I got but I just want to show some of my favourites)

I've also thrown in some of the things I've bought over the holidays too, although I haven't been shopping much.

So firstly I got this set of 10 Revlon Top Speed nail varnishes. I thought when I first saw these that they were an odd mix of colours as they didn't really match but I love them all individually. I think my favourites are the far right one called Royal Blue, the one next to that called Cloud and the one fourth from the right called Mistletoe. Most of these varnishes are glittery and I can't wait to use them all!

I also got some more nail varnishes from No7 in a set called Fingers and Toes. I can't wait to use all these pretty colours.

And finally I got this Barry M nail varnish which as you know is my favourite brand. This is one of the special ones with like metallic strips inside. I think this will look nice to spruce up a plain colour.

I bought these shoes in Tescos of all places! I never usually thought that Tescos would sell things like these but when I was mooching around the sale items a size 7 caught my eye and I was gutted that I couldn't find any others. But I kept looking and finally found the last pair which were luckily a size 6. They were originally £22 but I managed to bag them for only £7! Major bargain!

I actually bought this 'hat' in London before Christmas. I'd always wanted one and when I saw this one I knew I had to buy it. It keeps my head so warm and matches all of my clothes.

I got this perfume for Christmas too which is the Katy Perry Killer Queen one. I had the Lady Gaga Fame last year and absolutely loved it but I wanted something else. This isn't fruity or sweet, it's quite musky and 'sexy' if anything, and I absolutely ADORE the pretty bottle! It also wasn't expensive.

My mum bought me this book and I can't wait to get started on it when I have time!

I was probably mostly excited about the Real Techniques set that I also got. I'd been nagging my mum for it for ages but I didn't expect her to get a full set, only one brush. They're dirty already too because I've been using them non-stop but they're just so soft. Really good at applying make-up and I highly recommend them.

I also got these two MUA palettes. I think everyone knows that I've kind of started collecting them now but they are just so good. The colour pigment is amazing compared to the price of £4-6 which is insane for 12 pigments. I have many different ones now, mostly neutral so I was happy to get the bright sparkly one.

You can never have Christmas without the body lotions and scrubs. I got a Gok Wan set with a body wash, shower scrub and body lotion. I also got from the No7 set Softening Foot Balm and Revitalizing Hand Saviour. And then my best friend got me the chocolate and vanilla hand lotion which smells amazing!

I also happened to get two onesies. A red and cream candy cane style one and a Primark dinosaur one that matches my brothers!

I bought this playsuit today from Liverpool. It's a really pale blue colour which I didn't think would suit me because of my hair but I think it looks quite nice. The back ties up aswel which made me love it even more. It's also the first playsuit I've ever owned. And I have a feeling that this pale blue is going to be very in style in spring and summer.

This book is absolutely amazing. Written by two sisters, they list millions of different inspiration and ideas that can help you in your photography. I've been in a bit of a rut lately with my photography so this book has been great at helping me out with my ideas.

I also got other bits and bobs like hair stuff, scarves and a new hairdryer which I'm grateful for. With my money that I got too I'm going to buy two softbox lights so that I can make my videos a lot better with amazing lighting!

I love seeing what people got for Christmas and I hope everyone got what they wanted!

Stay Happy

Sarah

Christmas Time Illness :(

So it's been a while but I do have a reason for that. Before I explain I thought I would show you guys what I've been up to. On the 11th December I went to London with my college. To be honest I really really didn't want to go. I didn't know anybody, I had a really bad cold and all this stress just made my anxiety worse.

Luckily I quickly made friends with a girl called Ella and she helped me out. On the first day we went to the Warner Bros Studios which was amazing! I've never really been a massive Harry Potter nerd but it was so fascinating to see the behind the scenes of the films.

And then at night we went to watch Frozen and I have to say that it is one of my favourite films so far and I just had to go and watch it again!

The next day we went to the 02 arena Music Experience and it wasn't the best but there was a great dancing game there! It was also awesome to see the inside of the 02 and realise just how big it actually is!

Then in the afternoon we went to BBC Studios and saw where the News is filmed and took a tour of the building. We also got a cheeky glance of The Hairy Bikers and Nick Knowles too! Then at night we went to Hyde Park Christmas Markets and they were spectacular!

You can never beat strawberries covered in chocolate!

And then the day after we had free time before we came home so me and Ella went shopping on Oxford Street which was exciting! I did have a good time but my anxiety and cold ruined it a bit so I was just glad to be sleeping in my own bed.

So I just thought that this was an ordinary cold, blocked nose and all that but it turned worse. My sinuses in my cheeks started to hurt and the pain became unbearable but I had to carry on in college. Then in the last week of college I started to get a really bad pain just under my chest. I thought it was indigestion at first but then I realised it didn't feel like it. It started to hurt a lot, and I couldn't concentrate properly in college. But it was my last week so I troopered  through. Then on the Saturday I was sick, and if you know me, I'm never ever sick. I hate it and it's one of my many reasons of my anxiety so that didn't help me at all. So I spent the next couple of days in bed, still dealing with this chest pain too. Luckily I felt a bit better over Christmas Eve and Christmas day but I could still feel the pain under my chest. It usually got worse after I ate so I've been trying to eat less, but I do love my food. 

On the day after boxing day I told my mum that my shoulder had starting hurting somewhat too, along with my belly so she took me to the doctor's and he checked everything for me and said there was nothing to worry about. He gave me some tablets to clear my stomach and so I started taking them.

That evening I went to my relatives for a family buffet and I was having fun playing games with my cousins when I felt a sharp shooting pain straight up my arm and mainly in my shoulder, and if you know me then you'll know that I panic, so it really freaked me and I started worrying about what it could be. So I did what I have been doing the past few days to try and get comfortable so that it will go away when my stomach and chest started hurting too. My mum made me lie down and she looked after me so well. Luckily my Aunty who was there is a doctor so she helped me out somewhat but she still had no idea what was wrong with me. The fact that I'd had this pain for over a week now was really getting to me because I just wanted it to go away. No position and way I lay relieved me and I was getting fed up and upset way too quickly. I couldn't move either. Moving any of my arms hurt my shoulders, moving my body hurt my belly and even breathing hurt my chest. Let's just say I was an emotional wreck.

And that's been pretty much it for the last couple of days. I haven't left my bed, unless my mum has helped me get up. I haven't slept that well either because of the pain but I slept through most of the day. I feel like I've wasted all of my days instead of being with my friends and family but there is nothing I can do about it if I can't physically move. My friends and family have also noticed a change in me that I want back to normal. I'm noticeably paler, and thinner ( I've lost just under a stone in a month of being ill which I didn't have to spare anyways) and to be honest I just look unhealthy. I don't think I'm being myself either which I need to change back because I hate feeling so low and ill. I can't wait to get back to my normal self! 

Luckily for me it is getting that bit easier. We're on the idea at the minute that it is something to do with digestion so I've been cramming in pieces of toast, crackers, rice and chicken. It's not the nicest and most delicious choice of food but it will have to do if it's getting me better.

So that is my excuse for no blogs and videos and even if you say I could've done those things in bed, I literally did not want to do anything. I just wanted to lie there and sleep. And I know that it's been the worse possible time to be ill but at least I've been able to stay at home and sort this out properly.

And I'd just like to give a huge shoutout to my mum! :) She's looked after me so much, even slept in my bed when I couldn't move in case I wanted to sit up. She's the one that's kept me sane, and laughing because without her and my family I would've been so lonely and I would've thought up loads of negative things in my head. She's also gotten me everything I wanted, and kept me comfortable, even helping me change and brush my hair which I didn't think I'd need help with at 17 but things happen I guess.

Hopefully I'll be up and running as soon as possible, I'm excited to eat all my Christmas goodies that we've bought that I haven't been able to munch on yet. I'm also excited with new video ideas and blog posts that will be up soon too :)

Sorry for the long winded description of my illness, not really great to write about but I didn't want to come up with the lame excuse that I was just 'ill' but I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas and got what they wanted! Hopefully I'll do a small post of the some of the things I got for Christmas too :)

( Also if any of this illness sounds familiar to anyone who might know what it is then let me know, you might just be helping me out :))

Stay Happy

Sarah

Hectic!

Wow! What a hectic week or so this has been! I can't believe how busy I am!

Between doing my media and photography coursework in any spare time and also keeping up with my videos and my blog is so hard. I also have to squeeze my work in there too. There's also so much coming up as well. In December I'm going to London for a few days with my college for Media. So we're going to see The Warner Bros studios finally, and also go to BBC. I'm so excited about seeing London at Christmas time and see all the Christmas shopping.

So I know I'm behind on posts but bear with me and I have a video for you all instead.

About two months ago I filmed this music video with my friend Robyn for our media coursework in college. It's taken us so long to edit it but we have finally done it and I would like to share it.

We are so proud of it and we want to get as many views on it as possible so we can write a good feedback for our evaluation. You also might see a glimpse of my not so normal face in there!

Check it out here! It will be much appreciated!

Keep posted and Stay Happy

Sarah